Like Rain

Hosea 6:3
He will come to us like rain.

I have always loved the rain.  That warm cleansing spring time rain that some how makes everything more clear.  Everything just seems right.  And pure.  And beautiful.

Throughout my life, I always went to church with my family and we prayed before dinner.  But until 8th grade, I didn't know what it meant to have a relationship with the Creator of the Universe.  Since then, I've watered this relationship with as much love and care as I could.  Until college.  I wanted to make my faith my own.  I wanted to feel what it was like for God to be calling me to Him again.  Like everything in life, it didn't go as planned.  My relationship with Him took a backseat to everything, especially to my college education.  It wasn't until about a week ago that I understood this verse so clearly.  He will come to us like rain.  Interestingly, it was actually raining that week when it happened.  I finally felt called back.

I had been struggling with meaning and purpose with my life for a few months.  I still don't know where I'm going or what my passion is, but I feel more secure knowing that it will come in due time.  He will once again come to me like rain.

Life and future

I've always been somewhat idealist.This weekend I had a rough few hours.  The whole weekend was amazing, but there were a few moments where I got a bit too emotion.  True, there were some biological reasons, but I was also thinking a lot.

About a month ago, I accepted a full time job offer at an amazing civil engineering company.  I'm very thankful to now have a full time job that is in my field of study.  The only thing that isn't perfect is that I have to be on a computer all day, every day.  And if you know anything about me, I love being outside and talking to people.

I always thought, contrary to what this generation is doing, that I would find my first job, love it, make it my career, and stay at that company forever.  After talking to a friend, I learned that isn't necessarily the case, and I shouldn't expect anything either way.  And who knows what will happen.  Maybe I will end up loving this job and making it my career.  Or maybe, it's necessary for me to learn what I need to learn at this job for my dream job.  Who knows!  But the important thing is that I need to be patient.  And patience is hard for me, but completely necessary in this beautiful thing called life.

What I also need to work on is to not let temporary emotions be all consuming.  Yes, I was feeling this way, but that doesn't mean that I need to let it take over in an all-consuming manner.  I feel things very deeply (which I think I may make my next post about), which isn't a bad thing.  However, I need to be careful that my constant feeling doesn't negatively affect those that are closest to me.